Who Am I

Who am I…

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The best answer to this question would be silence, but it usually either wouldn't be sincere from the perspective of the one who keeps it or can't be understood by the one who hears it.

As Rumi says:

The language of God is silence. All else is poor translation.

If we had to use words, the next best answer would be:

I am.

Nothing after that.

No definitions. No labels. No past or future.

That is the essence of life: the witness, the awareness, the consciousness behind all experience.
And perhaps it’s what we’ve been seeking all along, no matter what we chase on the surface.

That’s what this space points to.

ender.im = Ender, I am.

Still, while truth itself needs no story, we do.
And I believe there is value in meeting each other as human beings along the way.

Not to compare paths, but to recognize that beneath very different lives, we are often walking toward the same place.

I’ve lived many chapters, worn many identities, and followed many paths, some chosen, some imposed.
I’ve known belonging and displacement, devotion and doubt, ambition and emptiness, intimacy and loss.
I’ve tasted certainty, and then watched it dissolve.
Again and again.

I’ve spent years searching for truth outside myself, through work, success, relationships, belief systems, and spiritual traditions, only to be gently, and sometimes painfully, guided back inward.

Along the way, life stripped me of what I thought I was.
Roles fell away. Beliefs loosened. Attachments broke. Relationships ended.
And in that undoing, something quieter and more honest began to emerge.

What remains now is not answers, but clarity.
Not perfection, but trust.
Not an identity, but a deep intimacy with life as it is.

This space is where I share what I’ve seen, unlearned, and remembered.
Not as truths to adopt, but as reflections you may recognize in yourself.

If you’re here, chances are you’ve also felt that pull.
That subtle knowing that something essential has been forgotten,
and that remembering it matters more than becoming anything new.

If my words can help you walk your path with a little less confusion,
a little less unnecessary suffering,
and a little more gentleness toward yourself,

then this space has fulfilled its purpose.

We are all, in our own way, finding our way back home.

You’re welcome to walk with me.

With love, gratitude, and trust in what unfolds,

Ender
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